14 hours til show time.

So my second surgery is tomorrow morning. I have to be at Beth Israel at 5:45 am, and will probably be back in New Ro about 11. I know that logically, I should not be concerned. I should, instead, be calm, knowing that this will all go smoothly, just as it did last time, that I will be up and at 'em again in a week, and that I have the next week to myself, to drink fribbles with S and hang out with friends who are home for the summer, and perhaps even pack a little. But, I am worried. And nervous. I have a pit in my stomach and I have convinced myself that at some point in the next week my right ankle is going to cave and I am going to be crippled. I am aware of the ridiculousness of this, simultaneously, but it is the overriding emotion at the moment. I don't want to go through with this again, my right ankle is finally feeling good, the thought of going back to square one is just terrifying. I wanna go home and go to sleep and wake up in a week. Is that okay? Can I go do that now?